Angela (a_dubb) wrote in its_not_so_easy,

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Hello there.

Name? Angela

Age? Somewhere between 18 and 19

Do you cut? Yes.

Who knows about it? My boyfriend.

Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? Yes, three times.

Where do you usually cut? My stomache, my legs and my arms.

When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? The boyfriend.

What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? My job, and people asking awkward questions.

Do you have a fascination with scabs? When I get one, I like to pick at it.

Do you like scars, yes or no? I think scars are "souviners you never lose." They are beautiful.

Do you name your razor? No.

What other methods of SI do you use? Cutting and burning

Do you dislike the term "self mutilation"? No.

What various ways do you use to hide cuts? I used to put foundation over my scars and wear long sleeved shirts and long pants to hide the fresh cuts.

Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars? I used to. Not anymore, tho.

Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? Yes. When I was thirteen, I spent three months in a mental ward for trying to kill myself.

Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? No.

What's the best part about cutting to you? The release.

Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? Jack Off Jill's Strawberry Gashes

What instrument do you use to cut? Anything that will get the job done.

What causes you to cut? Discomfort, anxiety, panic attacks, boredom,

What do you feel afterwards? Comfort.

What is your closest Close Call? When I was thirteen and had to go to the mental ward. I cut my wrist open.

How long have you been doing it? Since I was nine. I cut my face really badly one day, right under my eye. I still have the scar from it.

Do you keep a razor in your bag? No, I keep it in my wallet.

Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? Yes.

Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? No. I don't feel the need to pay someone to be my friend and listen to my problems.

Do you have any other disorders not associated with SI? I have plenty of disorders. I'm bi-polar and I have ADD
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