n/a. (hermasque__) wrote in its_not_so_easy,

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"Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over."

Name? Neko
Age? 17
Do you cut? Yes.
Who knows about it? My two best friends, Niki& Brooklyn; some of my guy friends.
Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? Yes.
Where do you usually cut? My wrist.
When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? Niki.
What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? When I had cut myself about 5 times on my wrist, I was at school and one of my 'social' friends wanted to see my wristband, and I kept trying to make excuses not to let her see, because she would definatly flip out.
Do you have a fascination with scabs? Scabs are pretty.
Do you like scars, yes or no? I absolutely adore scars.
Do you name your razor? No; never thought of that. I'm usually losing/getting a new one often so..
What other methods of SI do you use? This is the first, so far.
Do you dislike the term "self mutilation"? No..I mean, that's what we're doing, right? Cold hard truth.
What various ways do you use to hide cuts? I'm hardly ever caught without my wrist band, and that's how I cover it. Nobody ever suspects because it's 'trendy.' -_-;
Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars? Hell no. But there's hardly ever time inbetween cuts so that I can show my scars off.
Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? No.
Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? No.
What's the best part about cutting to you? Knowing that I can do it to myself, to see the blood, the seperation of skin.
Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? Jack off Jill - Strawberry Gashes. I know more but I can't think at the moment.
What instrument do you use to cut? Razorblade.
What causes you to cut? Stress, depression, boredom, angst.
What do you feel afterwards? I feel...content.
What is your closest Close Call? When me and Niki were both cutting and my mom almost walked in.
How long have you been doing it? Almost 6 months now.
Do you keep a razor in your bag? No, I don't carry around a bag or else I would. I always lose them...it pisses me off!
Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? Not yet. I'm working on it.
Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? Can't afford it.
Do you have any other disorders not associated with SI? I haven't been officially treated, but I think I am Manic Depressive, Borderline Personaltiy Disorder, and ADD. But, like I said...I don't know for sure.
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